Basically a baseless thoughts!!!

I’m currently trembling while typing or should I say, writing this shit on my keyboard. Is it the cold weather or my own inability to taste, let alone digest, the bitter truth? Despised and hated by the one I love the most, the inner demon in me as laughing at me at my own stupidity for he led me to believe me that me of all people, is superior to all the living beings in this massive world. How fool of me to believe such bullshit! I’ve got my exams tomorrow, made a foolish mistake of calling that person and making myself feel worse than what I was feeling before the call. I don’t blame her but me for this. I brought this upon myself and well I have to face it as long as I take my last breath, until the last “thump” of my heart. I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel as the tunnel seems to last forever.” Whatever the consequences may be, I should not give up.”  This is what I used to think. Now I can do nothing but laugh at myself for thinking that way. Not achieved even a single thing at my age in this phase of the human civilization is a big spit on my face. Everytime I walk in the streets I can see people laughing at me, laughing at my incompetence.