Crawling

Somedays are just like the days when you think you are invincible, while there are the others when u are like the most vulnerable creature crawling through the darkest alleys of the darkest streets in some of the cruelest of places. Realizing the mistakes you have done over the past is certainly a good one but making up for the things that you have ruined is a tough one to crack, even worse when you want to make up with another person and that person does not even consider doing that because of what you had done or said to that person. Yes, some things are done out of sheer foolishness while some are done on purpose, if you say the things you did because of your anger is a foolishness, then I cannot disagree more than anyone. While some things are done on purpose but you might not have any regrets while letting it happen. The regrets you will have is when you ruin everything you valued more than your life. Its an aweful feeling and you just cannot let go of it no matter how much you wish. Time may heal everything but whenever you come across anything that might cause the sudden strike of remembrance, then it starts all over again. These things might not apply to you if you’re not a normal human being without feelings. I know people have time and again been telling me that its out of utter foolishness and stupidity that I may be feeling like this but when you love someone so truly, with all your heart, no one can help you, actually its impossible to let go everything, let alone easily. Moving on might be an option, yes it is an option, but would that help the cause? Would that make you feel better? In some way it can, but the love you had for the person will never be replaced no matter how much you make yourself believe that it is not true, you always end up feeling it. Well that’s all I can come up with right now. I may be writing some useless shit but yes, I am writing from the bottom of my heart, the loneliness, the solitude, the exams might not be helping the cause, but I want that person to know that I am going to be there no matter how much I am hurt, no matter how much I am disheartened, all I want her to know that my love for her has never been so strong and will never weaken by some mere foul words that might come up with her irritation as a result of me being so “stuck with everything”.

Pros and Cons Time

Living in a hotspot of the town has its own ups and downs. Being a "sahariya" itself, has its advantages and disadvantages. So, living in this part of the town, Thamel, as it has been called for ages, I have been experiencing many bitter sweet memories over my lifetime. Though I'm a mere youngster in his early 20s, I have been enjoying my life to the fullest in the expense of my studies, which I shouldnt have neglected all these time. So, back to Thamel thing, whenever anyone of my "new" friends ask about where I live and I reply back "Thamel", I get almost the same reaction from them, "Whoa!! THAMEL!! Moj cha hai! Thamel ma ghar!!", which sometimes does feel good, but for me its the same, whether u live at Thamel or some other place. Its not that I have problem with these remarks but as I've said earlier, it has its own ups and downs.

The main advantage you have is you can hang around anywhere and anytime and dont have to worry about late night cabbies ripping you off!!! Another pros is you're at walking distance away from any main point of the city, it may be New Road, or Durbar Marg or the malls as well. I don't have to worry about the pack micros and short tempos to travel while I walk, which is quite good for health too!!! ( So my secret for a lean and fatless body is walking!!! hehe ;) ). Thamel, a tourist hub of the town, is a great place to relax and take a walk just to get rid of the stress you have due to studies and work. Just a walk for 10 or 20 minutes in the evening, and you're fresh!!

I've spent almost all of my life in Thamel. From the time when I waited for my school bus during my childhood to this very day, Thamel has experienced various changes, not physically but for the people, infratstructures and of course its push towards being a Tourism Destination cum Business Hub. The locals whom I used to know from Thamel are mostly either abroad or have shifted some other 'Peaceful' places (Do note my stress towards Peaceful). And there's the "nighlife" of Thamel, for most people it would sound quite wierd that I'm not a big fan of Thamel's nightlife, specially within my neighbourhood's part of Thamel. The reason - infamous "Dohori Sanjhs" and "Dance Bars". The noise from them are really irritating. To make it worse the building next door to my place has a "Dohori Restaurant" in it. The 7 pm -12 am part of the day is the most tormenting part of the day. The irritating music, the screeching voices, low quality sounds and worst sort of singers just make it a lot worse that it sounds. My friends who come to my place for a couple of hours during the evening time cant stand the noise....imagine how have I been living with the sound for 6 friggin years. Why cant they come up with sound proofing stufss? Doesnt social repsonsibility come up to their mind while starting out these businesses and why is the government so mum about these things? I'm sure loads of complaints regarding the noises come up to the desks of the local authorities!!

I dont know what Im Talking about

2:11 AM in the morning, stricken with fever, and im here wide awake, not able to sleep and trying to write something on this blog. As I recall, its been more than 4 months since i've updated or written anything over here. Partly I've been quite occupied with my own works and some other stuffs that i have prioritized but not anymore, exams are going on but as usual im in no mood of studying or preparing for them though i have been trying a lot better that i did with my previous 7 semester exams. Since, i am totally clueless about what to write, I will go on about how my favorite team in the Premier League, yes Manchester United, has been doing lately. Three weeks into the season, as expected it has been a slow start. With 3 or 4 quality pre-season signings, United were hopeful to start off the season brightly with a win agains Everton at Goodison Park at the first round of the league. The things don't usually go as we think, do they? With superior physical ability, the Toffees were able to snatch the win despite of some heroic efforts of our young goalie David De Gea. He could've done nothing to save the shot from the Man of the Match performer Maroune Fellaine of Everton. With that loss, the second round league game was a must win match for the Reds as the lads prepared their first home game. A good game but a nervy ending thanks to Nemanja Vidic's 65th minute own goal made the score 3-2 against Fulham at Old Trafford. In that game, two signings Shinji Kagawa and Robin Van Persie started off their Old Trafford debut with goal a piece for the both of them and Rafael Da Silva scoring another one from a header to make it three. And then, on Sunday, United visitedSt. Mary's Stadium to face off against Southhampton, a newly promoted club returning to the English Top Flight Football after 7 long years. After going 1-0 down, United came back strongly and scored the equalizer via RVP in the first half. Second half showed us more drama as the Saints scored another one thanks to another defensive fraility of the fullbacks. 2-1 down, United were awarded a penalty, only for RVP to miss it. Paul Scholes comes off the bench and before you know it, he starts to dictate the field with his pin point passing (at 37 years of age, age is just a number for him). And the comeback kings get back into the business as they score another equalizer in the 87th minute and adding another one in the injury time, thanks to RVP for the both goals. The game finished 2-3 to United but, even with the win, United still need to work a lot harder to have that striking quality they had last season. I know its too early to judge them, but the Reds need to improve on their full backs and the midfield where they were looking most vulnerable.

Two weeks long international break might be the best way to assess the development of the team at the moment, so lets stay hopefull!!!!! B.E.L.I.E.V.E