Crawling

Somedays are just like the days when you think you are invincible, while there are the others when u are like the most vulnerable creature crawling through the darkest alleys of the darkest streets in some of the cruelest of places. Realizing the mistakes you have done over the past is certainly a good one but making up for the things that you have ruined is a tough one to crack, even worse when you want to make up with another person and that person does not even consider doing that because of what you had done or said to that person. Yes, some things are done out of sheer foolishness while some are done on purpose, if you say the things you did because of your anger is a foolishness, then I cannot disagree more than anyone. While some things are done on purpose but you might not have any regrets while letting it happen. The regrets you will have is when you ruin everything you valued more than your life. Its an aweful feeling and you just cannot let go of it no matter how much you wish. Time may heal everything but whenever you come across anything that might cause the sudden strike of remembrance, then it starts all over again. These things might not apply to you if you’re not a normal human being without feelings. I know people have time and again been telling me that its out of utter foolishness and stupidity that I may be feeling like this but when you love someone so truly, with all your heart, no one can help you, actually its impossible to let go everything, let alone easily. Moving on might be an option, yes it is an option, but would that help the cause? Would that make you feel better? In some way it can, but the love you had for the person will never be replaced no matter how much you make yourself believe that it is not true, you always end up feeling it. Well that’s all I can come up with right now. I may be writing some useless shit but yes, I am writing from the bottom of my heart, the loneliness, the solitude, the exams might not be helping the cause, but I want that person to know that I am going to be there no matter how much I am hurt, no matter how much I am disheartened, all I want her to know that my love for her has never been so strong and will never weaken by some mere foul words that might come up with her irritation as a result of me being so “stuck with everything”.